Back on February 6, 2018, a South Carolina woman named Kaylee Muthart tore both of her eyes out of their sockets and squished them while high on meth. According to her, she needed to do that to save the world. She had to undergo emergency surgery and, since then, she has felt much better and optimistic.
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Muthart, who previously left school, began using drugs which led to a slow decline in her mental health. She was about to enter a rehabilitation facility to help her with her addiction. However, in February, she took a much larger meth dose than she was accustomed to, which lead to hallucinations.
"It was then I remember thinking that someone had to sacrifice something important to right the world, and that person was me," Muthart wrote in a Cosmopolitan piece. "I thought everything would end abruptly, and everyone would die, if I didn't tear out my eyes immediately. I don't know how I came to that conclusion, but I felt it was, without doubt, the right, rational thing to do immediately."
A man she was staying with approached her and asked her for the house's key. Sandhe took that as a sign. She had to tear her eyes out right there and then. "So I pushed my thumb, pointer, and middle finger into each eye," Muthart said. "I gripped each eyeball, twisted, and pulled until each eye popped out of the socket." She would later squeeze both of her eyes with her hands.
Kaylee Muthart was airlifted to Greenville Memorial Hospital in South Carolina, with doctors then performing an emergency eye surgery to remove what was left of her eyes to prevent infection and preserve her optic nerves.
Road To Recovery
At the hospital, Muthart's mother was right beside her, which helped her with the realization she was not permanently blind. Her friends were right there with her too. She was then transferred to a psychiatric inpatient treatment facility, which helped her greatly. There, she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder.
"Activities I used to enjoy, like playing guitar and learning piano, are going to be harder now that I'm blind, but I'm still optimistic," she reflects. "I still want to go to school to become a marine biologist — although I'm blind, I can still go underwater to feel the pressure and deepness."
While she sometimes gets upset about her situation, she still finds herself happier than she was before. "It took losing my sight to get me back on the right path," Mutthart said. "But from the bottom of my heart, I'm so glad I'm here."
